The Cost of Forgiveness (pt 1)

I grew up as a pastor's kid, mostly church planting, which moved us around a lot. In the course of 15 years, I lived in eight different cities across six different states. Some of the moves were due to unexpected church conflict, resulting in leaving churches we loved and poured into. We've experienced some extremely ugly church situations that caused significant heartache, grief, and pain.

So I have firsthand experience of the difficulties of church ministry and the costliness of forgiveness.

Unfortunately, those ugly situations aren't unique to my family. Churches don't have the best statistics for keeping their pastors (almost 80% of pastors have had forced resignation, usually due to church conflict). Sadly, statistics for pastors staying in the ministry are also very low; most don't make it five years. Depression stats for pastors and pastors' kids are high. Gossip, slander, and betrayal by church members are all too common.

The church, which is supposed to be a beautiful reflection of Christ, is often filled with just as much conflict and brokenness as the world. Shocking, right?

Why is this? I believe there are three reasons:

1. The Church is Full of Sinners
Redeemed though we are, we are sinners. We sin against one another all the time, whether we mean to or not. Sometimes we expect that the church will be full of beautiful, caring community and deep relationships—and no conflict. While biblical community should characterize us, we will inevitably experience conflict. The question is not whether or not we have conflict, but how we handle it that demonstrates if we represent Christ well.

2. Forgiveness Requires Great Sacrifice
I believe one reason for rampant church conflict is that forgiveness is costly. It is hard to forgive that person who keeps sinning against you, especially when they're a fellow believer. But even God's forgiveness towards us had a great cost. Tim Keller explains:

“...God's grace and forgiveness, while free to the recipient, are always costly for the giver.... From the earliest parts of the Bible, it was understood that God could not forgive without sacrifice. No one who is seriously wronged can "just forgive" the perpetrator.... when you forgive, that means you absorb the loss and the debt. You bear it yourself. All forgiveness, then, is costly.” 

Forgiveness is daunting and painful because we absorb the cost. Naturally, we want the person who hurt us to suffer for what they've done, especially when it is unjust. Forgiveness involves bearing the cost of someone's sin against you. And that requires the supernatural work of the Spirit in your heart.

3. Conflict Resolution Involves Formidable Effort
Sometimes it's easier to ignore the problem or let the relationship fizzle off, versus working through the difficulty and pain of resolving it. You will find people in the same church that refuse to speak to one another because of bitterness and unresolved conflict. Surprising? It just goes to show that biblical conflict resolution is often much harder than holding onto that bitterness.

Hope for this Difficult Task
Forgiveness may be one of the most difficult and costly things you are called to do. Working through conflict, misunderstandings, and hurt with fellow believers will require humility and sacrifice. Reconciliation is not for the faint of heart.

No matter how monumental the cost of forgiveness may seem, we know that it is not as costly as God's forgiveness towards us (1 Pet. 2:24). This is where we find great hope! The forgiveness we've encountered through the gospel propels us to forgive others (Col. 3:13). It enables us to pursue peace without putting the pressure for another person's response on what we do, because God alone changes hearts (Rom. 12:18). Even in those difficult situations where reconciliation does not occur, we can trust that justice is in God's hands (Rom. 12:19).

May the gospel motivate us to embrace the cost of forgiveness.

(Stay tuned for part 2!)