Chronic Illness Lessons: Identity

Who am I?
What makes me, me?
Where do I find value and purpose?

Have you asked yourself these questions? I think we all have. Each person looks for something to make them unique or give them purpose and value.

Consequently, identity struggles are a normal part of life. For instance, God created us for work (Gen. 2:15) and relationships (Gen. 2:18). It is not wrong, but a reflection of God Himself, to find joy and excitement in those things. However, because of the curse, those good things often become ultimate things, and the way God created them to function becomes distorted and sin-raided.

While we all battle identity issues, chronic illness seems to present an identity crisis. It strips away what we previously thought defined us and causes us to question everything. We are told to find our identity in Christ (Col. 3:3). But what does that look like when you battle chronic illness? 

Chronic illness has unveiled my own identity issues more than anything else I’ve experienced. Here are some things I’ve learned:

1. You can’t define yourself by what you do (or don’t do). You may be unable to contribute like the average person or keep up with normal life. While you feel this tension of what you want to do and what you're able to do, it's good to remember that limitations are part of being human. Identity in Christ frees you from defining yourself by what you do.

2. Your value isn’t defined by what others think. It's tempting to look to others for validation or for them to understand. Identity in Christ frees you from looking to others for value.

3. You can rest without striving. Even when resting, it’s easy for to strive internally. “I need to do this… if only I could accomplish this….why can't I do that?…” Even though we may be physically stopping, we can act as if the world can’t go on without us. Identity in Christ frees you to rest.

4. It’s ok to fail. There will be days you feel like a failure because of where you’re at physically or your lack of accomplishments. There will be numerous moments of sinful responses. Identity in Christ frees you from being defined by your failure.

5. It’s ok to say no. You don't have to fix everything or take on every need. Consider what is wise for you, and learn to say no when it's necessary. Identity in Christ frees you from the burden of being the savior of anyone or anything.

6. You can accept your current state of health, while being hopeful for the future. Honestly accepting your limitations is necessary for healing, but you can be hopeful for the future. Identity in Christ frees you from placing your hope in your healing, while remaining hopeful.

7. You can be grateful when your idols are unveiled. Yes, there are emotions and struggles that come about from the stress and physical, but there will be heart issues as well. Be grateful, because God is using it to refine you. Identity in Christ allows you to honestly confess your sin.

8. Your value doesn’t rest on your performance. Your value rests on the finished work of Christ, not anything you do. Identity in Christ frees you from performing to earn favor.

9. You are not defined by your illness. After a while, sickness becomes comfortable, no matter how desperately you want it to improve. It may be the only identity left, since everything was stripped away. So you may become afraid to lose it. Identity in Christ frees you from fear.

10. Your life is not worthless. You are of great value, loved and accepted, because you are made in the image of God! Don’t ever believe the lie that it would be better if you were gone or that you’re too much of a burden on everyone else. Your life has purpose, even if you can’t see it. Identity in Christ gives you purpose, no matter what life looks like.

As long as we find identity in success, performance, achievements, relationships, serving, or anything temporary, we will be prone to either pride or despair. Tremendous freedom flows when we find our identity in our Savior.

If your purpose and value has been stripped away by chronic illness, learn to see that as a blessing. When God takes away what doesn't last, He wants to replace it with something permanent. He wants you to find your identity, your hope, your joy, and your fulfillment in Him alone. Learning to rest in your identity in Christ will make you much more fruitful and effective and bring hope in the darkest of days.

If you missed it, check out part one on grief!